It's been hard!

Now I know what it's like to be a single mom of 3 kids. It really sucks!! We've reached the point in hubby's job where he has to start his traveling. I thought I was ready for it. I thought I'd be the strong one and that I could handle anything.
I was WRONG!!! I thought it would be one of the kids that would cry and miss their Daddy. I was WRONG again!!!
It's all ME!! I've been crying and crying and crying. We actually get to speak quite a few times a day. That is great! We also get to IM each other every morning which is great too. But what about all the other time?? What do I do about that?
I hate going to bed knowing that he's not coming later!! I hate sitting there at night knowing that he won't be walking in the door from a day of work. I hate that he can't kneel down with us for evening prayers!
I hate not being able to get pissed off from his spending all his time on the stupid game!!!

I just want him home. It's not going to change though. He'll come home and then 2 wks later he'll be off again and I'll have to get used to it again and again and again.

Maybe by next time we'll be in our own house though. Maybe that will be nicer. I'll have to arrange things, etc. Right??

I guess it is getting easier as the time passes. This Wed will be 1 wk since he's been gone. HE'll be home next Thursday. :)

I a can't wait!!!!